sorrow pounds her heart like waves pound a boat at sea.

i've been thinking too much lately about what i want. i have already decided what i need.

i need someone who is going to be my best friend. i need someone who is going to challenge my belief, or lack there of, on love. i need someone who can keep my attention and keep me smiling. i need someone who can see me without make up, in my pajamas, and still say that i look beautiful. i need someone who will understand that i don't like to be on the phone all the time. i need someone who will touch my scars and say that they get it. i need someone who is myself, but not myself. someone who is trying to be happy but is lost somewhere in between.

this is the hardest thing to find.

random fact of the day: i don't want to be alone, but i think i would be better off by myself.