decisions, decisions.

as much as i love scooter, i can't exactly do what he wants me to do. he has wild ambitions of running away and traveling the world until he's fourty, but what about starting a family and making a life for himself? i know that he's going to join the airforce, which will be awesome for the two of us to go around the world together, but after that, he still wants to continue roaming.

i don't want to be homeless my whole life. maybe up until a certain point, but i'm not wanting to wander around until i'm fourty-two...that's insanity. the ideal of wandering around and never having to conform to society is nice, but i can't do that forever.

i want to live in buffalo when caitlin graduates high school. or maybe i want to live in seattle. or tucson. of new york city. who knows? i just don't want to be on the road my whole life, living like a hobo or a hippy or a burden.

insanity is nice. but i want normality as well. i don't mind going around with him while he's in the airforce, but i don't want to be out and about forever. thirty is the oldest i'll go. i just don't know how to tell him.