While my head's in the clouds...

I actually enjoy smoking weed by myself because it gives my brain time to think. And within this time to think, I have to process things without running them by anyone first. I think the break from other people's opinions is lovely and deeply calming. It's nice to know exactly how I feel sometimes. You know? To not care about anyone but yourself? But that also leads me to think of things that are going to make me even happier...

I can't wait to live on the west coast in a couple of years. I just want to be out of this state with its backwards drug laws. I hate living in constant fear that someone's going to call the cops on me. What's wrong with people that a little bit of weed has to make them hate everyone else? I just dislike how this part of the country is. The west coast is so much more open minded. So much more bohemian and loving and free. It's just ideal for me. So I can't wait. And I can't wait to get my medical marijuana card and go to college with my best friends. I don't care if I'm older than some of the people in my classes. There are plenty of people older than me going back to school. No shame in wanting an education, even if you wanted to try out the world for a little bit first!

Another thing I can't wait for? Being with my boyfriend forever. I can't wait til the day when we can come to our apartment and night and just be with each other for hours and hours. I adore his company. His scent, the way he holds me, the way he breathes. Everything about him is relaxing and perfect and wonderful. I take love very seriously. It's the reason that I want to wake up in the mornings and the reason why I try to work through days and days of nonsense. One day, I'll be with him all the time. Constantly in his company. Just the two of us, traveling around the world.

Goddamnit, I can't wait. I never thought my future would be this perfect. I was always dreaming of a flower child like life, caring for the world and actually making a difference...And I'm going to do that.

My life is excellent.