Frequent Daydreams

I have been having increasingly frequent daydreams of the next few months ahead. I know this whole business with court and money issues are constantly in my mind, but for some reason, I can only look ahead to the positive future. I'll be starting out my new life with Scooter because in a month, he'll be finished with school. That means...living together! He would rather spend his time with me than anyone else, and I him. So living together is obviously a necessity right now.

I'm just so ready to tell him good morning and good night on a daily basis. I'm longing to see his face everyday, hold his hand, kiss him. I miss him like a madman when we're not together. And when we get to have our own place for us and our own space to be free and in love without fear of drama...it'll be perfect. It'll be like everything we want. Just the two of us and that's all we need.

Scooter said the other day that he could just walk off with me into the woods and be content for the rest of his life. I couldn't have said it better myself. We just fit so perfectly together; it's like he was made for me. Our personalities just naturally run the same course and I love it. It has never been easier to love someone than with him and just having him love me back equally is the most pleasant feeling in the world. I'm so goddamn happy that it's over flowing.

For a while, I didn't know if I was going to make it, living without Scooter on a daily basis. But now it's getting easier. I just keep the positive in mind and I know that everything that happens to me will be wonderful.