You Could Say I Knew...

It almost seems like from the very second I laid my eyes on you, when you were an adorable freshman and I was a junior, that I wanted to know you. I wanted to see you randomly, in all of your infinite cuteness, because I couldn't understand how someone I didn't even know could capture my attention so much. I thought you were gorgeous, and a wonderful actor, but I could have never imagined getting to know you well enough to be considered friends. I was awkward and ugly, and you had a very "famous" brother from the school. I just never thought our paths would cross.

And then you were there. A year later, at Mike's party, and I had a boyfriend. It felt like I had lost every opportunity to get to know you. But I knew I had to talk to you a little bit...but just talking to you wasn't enough. I had to have you sleep next to me. I had to nibble on your ear. I needed to feel you. Something was so different. You were completely irresistible to me. I just knew that I had to have you, one way or another. Boyfriend or not. Graduating and going to college didn't matter anymore. I wanted to be your best friend, know all of your secrets, be a part of your life. A big part.

If you had gone back in time and told me that I would be madly in love with you now, I would never believe it. I was determined to make something happen, but I never thought that you would turn out to be my soulmate. It's like everything in me knew, even though I never did. As if that single moment, when Annalisa pointed you out and said "That's Andy Barrette's little brother. He's literally the most attractive freshman I've ever seen.", I fell for you. But I never realized it until July 20, 2010, when I said it for the first time. My goodness. Love has never felt like this to me before. I have never wanted to be with anyone as much as I want to be with you.

I would follow you to the ends of the earth. I will love you with every fiber in my being, every cell in my body, for as long as I live. I am yours. My heart is yours. Completely and totally.