Unregrettable

Today was the first day of my freshman year in college. Well, community college. As I wandered around to my whopping two classes, I started to think about all of the friends that I graduated with in 2010. It seems like just yesterday, I was a senior in high school. But really, all of my friends are now juniors in college. They have two more years and then they get the honor of graduating as a collective in 2014. It was then that I realized I'm so far behind them, education wise. However sad that fact makes me, I'm actually comforted in another fact. I have life experience. A considerable amount of it, actually. I worked and took care of myself for two years. I have learned so much about myself and how to be productive that it's almost necessary for me to continue pursuing these experiences while still going to school. Granted, I will surely always be sad over the fact that I will never graduate with my peers. I had the chance to, when I was fresh out of high school and had moved to Arizona for college. I found it to be quite lonely, with living off campus and spending hours on campus by myself doing nothing. I cried every single night and mourned my move every single day. I felt heartbroken, too, because I was in love with a guy across the country. Scooter was a junior in high school when I started college, so I knew it was impossible for us to try and be a couple with so much distance and difference in our lives. When I decided to move back to North Carolina, it was a huge disappointment to my family. To me, though, it was my choice. And it was all a matter of being happy with my life and feeling like I belong. As much as I wanted to stay at the school, I couldn't. It was going to drive me into depression. I just knew it. But moving back meant so many things, including being Scooter's girlfriend, officially. We wanted to try and make it work between us, but never date because long distance is so hard. This was an amazing, happy surprise to him and he asked me to be his immediately. I'm going to graduate in 2016, and I couldn't be happier. I'm going into school Asa whole different person than before. And I'm doing it along with my boyfriend, which has made me feel so much better about my decision to fall behind. I think I'm going to enjoy college this time.